Without a shadow of a doubt, I am a writer. I have wanted to be a writer for as long as I can remember, and bit by bit, I am proving to myself that I was right to try and make that dream it a possibility. But can I truly call myself a writer if I don’t have a blog?
While yes, I do have both a Bachelor’s in English Literature and a Master’s in Creative Writing, along with a few published articles and half a novel in the works, but without a blog, some days I feel like a have jumped over a massive step of a wannabe author.
The truth is, whilst I have mastered the ability to throw everything and anything onto the wall to see if it sticks. This I have done with my art, my modelling and my social media content, yet I have noticed this ‘who cares?’ mentality does not seep into my world of writing. My writing, whether fiction or non-fiction, personal or not, is so precious to me. I find myself struggling to be flippant with my words for the sake of allowing myself to test the waters and expose my words for anyone to see. It seems too important to just toss out there on the scary internet.
I have been writing a lot, but I find myself reserving my works for open calls, submissions and competitions. Most of them insist that the work you hand in cannot be published anywhere else, and I suppose that includes a personal blog. So, I find myself saving my best works for something potentially greater, whilst believing my lesser works aren’t worthy for the blog, leaving said blog unbelievably empty and almost forgotten.
This won’t do. Especially since this blog is part of a website with so much more. I have my art, my shop, my modelling portfolio and any other projects or passions wrapped up into this one site. Feels a little embarrassing to imagine someone stumbling on this site, to see any other portfolio, only to see the word blog and discover the page bare. Well, no more!
I have been wondering what to do with this blog. I don’t like the either of posting works that have been turned down once too many, because then this blog will quickly become a hall of rejects. I also have works that I am deliberately keeping private, hoping for them to be published under a different name or in the hopes not to tease or spoil any larger goals for some of my pieces.
I figured I could write more about my life and rants, yet I already happily own a diary and have filled several before. My rants don’t always need an audience. Other times I wonder whether to write about art or writing, yet I find a lot of what I know comes more from the wisdom of others already out there than my own experience. I am sure my experience can be informative and entertaining to some extent, but not enough to focus the entirety of the blog.
In the end, I threw my hands up and said, ‘I guess it’s gonna be a bit of everything’. Everything I can think of that suit both my blog and my brand. I will post short stories, both fiction and non-fiction. I will post small entertaining rants that won’t be at the expense of myself or others, as well as small tales or being a model, writer and artist. I could perhaps repost some of my stories where allowed. I could perhaps write about the most pointless, unnecessary and ridiculous stuff for the practice of it. That is the beauty of having a blog after all. I don’t know why I have been so hesitant to make more use of it. There is actually so much I could write.
Though I will say now, do not expect a set routine or consistent posting from me at all. If I ever am able to keep up with all three areas of my creativity and their content and uploads, it means I am hanging on by a thread.
I would still encourage you to subscribe to my newsletter (if I have one set up by the time you read this) as it will keep you informed of it all, my writing, my art and any new updates on all projects. In the meantime, let’s see how well I do with this blog now, I have no more excuse to ignore it.
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